Fluidity in Thought, and Understanding my Sexuality.

Welcome readers, today's writings are simple enough and will follow that of which the title claims. I am almost 21 years old. My time on Earth has been short, but full of experiences, many of them a younger and less knowledgeable version of myself gave a negative connotation. Now I can take a few steps in the direction of reflection and understand what impact they had on me.

Sexuality is complicated, its messy and challenging to understand. In all honesty I truly love how much I am able to discover, not only about myself but just about this experience in general. I've fallen for my fair share of men and women, both older and younger than myself. There is no favoritism towards gender or orientation. While typing this my heart skips a few beats here and there, mainly due to the idea of my parents perception of their son explaining to the world his journey of self exploration.

I hope you can understand, Mom and Dad; that the second you decided to raise me up into a man that could fend for himself I would be able to make my own decisions. It scares pieces of me to think that there are so many young men and women who are terrified of being who they are. All for the external approval, not only from parental figures but also from a wide majority of adults who have been raised to believe that open expression of sexuality is wrong.

I personally don't believe that sexuality is all that we are, its a piece of us, along with our Ethnicity, our Race, Religious and/or Spiritual ideas, Age, our Language, National Origin, and our ability to develop interpersonally.

All of these factors create a whole and that whole thing is a fluid, ever changing being of creation and destruction.

You are as complex as you want to be as am I. So I'll end by saying this: go as deep as you can go. Yes, it will be a bit lonely at times, but there is always a being out there with the ability to comprehend that of which you are.

I see you for what you are, and Love you the same way. Stay blessed, and know that you are forever cherished. - Amir K.