False Helplessness

"Be not discouraged, keep on, there are divine things well enveloped. I swear to you there are divine things more beautiful than words can tell." ( Walt Whitman )

Being in school after high-school has taught me that there is always going to be more to learn. This was originally a conflicting thought for me due to all of the elder mentors that are stuck in their own ways, and have an inability to change their mindsets to match that of the whole societies current experience.

It took me a long time to be able to find the yearning to know more, but once I had discovered it.. there wasn't any looking back.

Helplessness.

This is a feeling that I once knew and still frequently find myself surrounded by. A feeling of complete lack of control, like I'm in a place that I need to be saved from. Never truly accounting that I am the one who made the decisions to get me to where I was. This isn't always the case, but still I have a choice: Be afraid of what is coming and break myself in half with false creations of worry and doubt, or be afraid of what is coming and make moves to set my future self up for the most success.

Helplessness is not easy to overcome and still even after being able to register the issue and realize my patterns, I still fall into desperation.

" I'm not good enough, everything I've done to this point was for nothing. "

" I'm worthless. No one wants me. "

" What difference would it be if I just killed myself? No one would care. "

" I'm alone, no one will ever understand me. "

What good is that way of thinking? If you find any of those relatable, how have you been living your life?

Are you productive?

Happy?

Do you have a desire to take another breath?

I feel as if I mixed up some hopelessness in there as well, but it can't hurt to try to kill two perspectives with one message.

The way that you communicate to yourself matters. Everything is attainable. It sounds so silly to think : OMG!! I CAN MANIFEST ANYTHING MY HEART DESIRES, AND I CAN BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME, BECAUSE I AM AWARE OF MYSELF AND MY DECISIONS.

It sounds hilarious because you don't believe that it's that easy. The secret is that answers are simple and the work is hard. A healer is put on the Earth's soil to show you how to turn the lights on in your own house, not to come do it for you.

Healing is, and always will be our own responsibility. Regardless of how we got hurt, or who hurt us. It's our job to take care of our own well-being.

I love you and hope that this was helpful.

Remember that you are cherished. - Amir K.